First Job

I found my first official job

There were many first times happened lately

First official job interview

First real job training

First time interacting with Autistic Kids

First time using ABA approach to help the kids

First experience working with so many different people

First time talking so so much in English (I need improvement...)

First time sleep at 9pm after 12 years old (Haha!!!)

Many first times =P

Brand new experiences

So far, I enjoy working as a behavior therapist

=)

Among so many first time, this one really light up my life

The very first time I feel success about helping the child learn a new skill

When he made some progress of something useful, it really cheers me up!!!

Although it is tiring, I am still doing and feeling good so far!

=D

by

zixian

Job Hunting

Job Hunting

I would say the process is quite self-destructive...

lolx...

When there is no feedback, you would start thinking...

"Am I lousy???"

"I am sure I am not good enough"

"Oh My God, then what should I do???"

Haha

What should I do???

Keep searching

Keep waiting

and still ENJOY the process

=)

Come on

This is your first job

Don't simply choose

I will find what I love to do

just have to take my time

don't be rush...

love,

zixian

Working...

Currently work with my mum

Stay at Melacca Hotel

Oh god, the work made ppl very very tired!!!

TIRED!!!

Hard to meet with dear due to many circumstances

Feel kinda SAD

Love to stay by your side

After finish my work, sure will go to meet with my super dear!!!

Work hard now

Play hard later

=)

by

zixian baby

Endless holidays???

Finished my last paper in July

Finished my Uni Life

Oh god, I am only an unemployed fresh-graduate...

So far, my life is fine...

Without starting the worries of hunting job, everything is fine...

So far I still enjoy it...

The days without assignments, quizzes, exams and lecture...

=P

BTW, I plan to work in Singapore...

I am being optimistic here... 

"I can find a job before the end of the year"

Haha... Still, I plan to go to Taiwan with friends... 

Hope the plan will work...

Zixian, you should start your job hunting already...

Everybody seems busy in working on something else...

only you still in holiday mood...

Okay, at least there is Vivian is with me now... lepak everyday!!!

Haha =P

我想说

我想说

心情真复杂

开心的同时又担心

担心的同时又觉得解脱

还真复杂呢

呵呵

还是专心地爱着Edwin简单些

=P

by

zixian

宝贝 笑一个

要照顾身体

要喝多多水

要好好睡觉

不能生病

因为这样会自己辛苦

身边的人也难过

宝贝

说好了哦

要笑就一起笑

要哭就一起哭

所以你答应我会当个坚强好男儿

我也答应你会当个坚强女强人

宝贝宝贝

笑一个嘛

这几天没睡好没吃好

也没看到你放松的表情

宝贝宝贝

把自己的心情调试好

这样对身边的每个人都好

对病人也好

加油加油

无论何时

你都有我的支持

爱你哟

紫贤

茫然

快毕业了

到底该何去何从

3 months

We have been together for 3 months =)

But I feel like we have been go through a lot and it makes me feel like we are dating for years

=P

Hey my baby boy...

Kinda miss u now...

Why you stay so far away from here...?

Thank a lot for what you have done for us.

I feel blissful every moment even when I am in stress =)

Hehe...

Ok lar...

You know what...?

I am gonna go back to my work after I post this...

I swear

=P

by

zixian

解脱？

解脱了

真的吗

昨天和妙女王聊天

聊啊聊啊

聊到了爱情

她说

她又沉沦了

原本我还很期待是个new guy

结果不是

结果还是同一个烂男人

当下我有点郁闷

好吧 我承认  我也沉沦过

经过一年半的沉沦

我解脱了

我活来了

原来放手就是这么一回事

而且我现在很幸福

遇到了不对的男人

就是要学会放手

这是经验谈

想当初我流的泪应该比一公升还多

lol

妙

希望这是我最后最后一次恭喜你解脱了

而且也不希望再听到同个男人的消息

知道吧

如果再听到  我也不要理你了

最后最后

还是要硬硬加一句

Darwin, 爱你哟!!!

哇哈哈!!!

by

zixian

两个人的荒岛

听完这首歌后

我问铁汉

“如果我们在只有我们两个人的荒岛  你会怎么办啊?”

“嗯... 带你去打猎咯...”

“然后?”

“过后会帮你按摩咯  打猎会累嘛...”

哈哈

铁汉果然温柔

=P

by

zixian

日剧 一公升的眼泪

一公升的眼泪

赚人热泪的一部日剧

好几年前看过几遍

每次都哭到半死

感人呐!!

这是插曲

我好幸福啊

健康的活着

=)))

by

zixian

Edwin sang birthday song!!!

I review my pictures in my lappie

and found something touch and interesting that I really want to share

There was a video shot by my cousin during my birthday

The guy bought me my favorite cake

and sang the birthday song

=)
He was shy but cute =P

The description of the video
"Uploaded this for keeping the memorable moment and also for fun... My first birthday celebration with my special one... since I was told that he doesn't like to sing birthday song, so I must keep this recording till the moment I die... because he sang several versions of birthday song for me... =)

Although there were only few pieces of cake, but I felt touch at the moment =)
Your heart outweigh all the other things for example the birthday present toothpaste =P

Love you, my dear!!!
You know, you have done a good job as a boy friend...
You are gentle, considerate, fun and cute... =)
But don't ever expect me to admit that you look like Louis Koo... =P

Muakzzz...!!"

by

zixian

铁汉和狗

我家铁汉其实很温柔的

呵呵

铁汉柔情

只专属于我的哟

=P

可是铁汉的狗很不善解人意

因为不能睡在铁汉的房间所以发脾气

铁汉弟弟还说铁汉不要狗狗小老婆了

然后我变成恶毒的女人啦

可是真的是不能忍受

铁汉的房间有个裸女

天天赤裸裸的躺在铁汉的床边

任何一个女人都无法忍受这种情况吧

铁汉  人狗有别

记住哦

紫贤

无价之宝

Edwin 说

“你是我的无价之宝”

哈哈

高兴

=D

Nervous, Worry, Exciting??? I don't know...

Holidays ended

A new semester starts

I am taking "substance abuse" and 

"understanding children in changing society"

as my elective =)

Sound interesting??? Hehe...

But I really hate the stupid timetable!!!

I have class on Monday, Thursday and Friday... WTH....

The thing I hate the most is...

I can't skip any class because of the pop quizzes that aim to keep people in the boring lecture

=(

which mean, I have no time to go back Johor during these few weeks

This is my last semester already...

I can feel the tension of being a working adult in few months later...

Argh....

Wanna do master degree or not???

Argh...

I know I am late for saying this, but I should start plan for my future d...!!!

Zixian, Go Go Go!!!

Muakzzz!!!

Holidaysssssssss

Now, come to the forth day...

I have done nothing...

=.=

but we should do nothing during holidays right???

hehe..

lazy me...

not exactly nothing...

Darwin and me went to Melacca for movie and cake...

I went to Muar to meet some cute girls and have nice food...

and some dramas and books...

=)

hehe...

I sleep a lot too..

I want to get rid of the dark circle

It makes me look very scary..

by

zixian baobeiiii

Holidaysssssss

Yo!!! Zixian baby girl, you are going to graduate soon...

Stand for few hours, then you are off from the crazy subjects...

I was a lil bit regret for the decision of choosing difficult elective subjects...

Crazy Crazy Crazy...

This semester is like a mess!!!

A lot of things happened, changes happened...

But I think I am coping quite well now in terms of interpersonal relationship....

Just, I cant bear with the laziness and avoidance strategy that I adopted when dealing with academic difficulty...

the consequence --> a panda typing the post at this moment... 3am...?

Argh!!!

Last paper will finish 11 hours later!!!

After that will go to Mid Valley sing-k...

or go to KLCC Kinokuniya shop shop... 

Back to Johor with my lovely cousin+driver - JY around evening hours

Woohooo!!!

My 2 weeks holiday start!!!!!

Who wanna jio me go out de, please contact me yaaaaa!!!

I cant wait for the relaxing time

I can sleep no matter how late it is

I can watch drama till have black circle... I miss korea, taiwan and hongkong series so so much!!!

I can go to many places to try out new nice food!!!!

I wanna do a lot a lot of things!!!!

Really cant wait for it!!!

I am super excited now...!!!

LOL

It is a bit weird that I dance like a crazy woman in front of my lappie...

Hehe..

okokok... control your emotion please...

you are going to experience a hard time before you can go for your holidays...

Ok lar, BACK to work...

=P

by

zixian

Psychology???

Many people asked me

"Why psychology???"

If I am free, I will tell them a long long story which started with nursing...

If I am not free, I will tell them I also don't know how come I chose psychology...

After that I have to answer another question which is pretty annoying...

I cannot figure out what are you thinking right now...

Psychology is a scientific study about behaviors, cognitions and affection, not magic...

and now

I wanna asked myself

"Why psychology???"

...

...

...

...

...

If you are not prepared yet, please don't come to HELP study Psychology...

Hehe...

I wish I could read Dr. Goh and Dr. Hera's mind now...

=(

by

zx

A Crazy Girl's New Look

The day after DarWin went back to BP after fetch me back home

My home's big boss said: 

"Hey, you should cut your hair d! Short hair...

Perm it too..."

Then Ok lor... I went to cut the hair...

and perm it...

and become this...

After I reached home

Big Boss said: Har... (His expression is like looking at a shit...)

Not that short lar!!!

You are so short d, still cut short hair, look even shorter...

Then mum said: Aiyo, he don't know fashion de lar...

Wapiang

I wanna cried d at the moment...

Shout Loudly at blog...

"DAD, I WANT MY LONG HAIR BACK!!!"

 I cut till so short is because of you hor!!!

Pay me back my long hair...

wuuuu...

I miss the long hair

by

Zixian Baobeiii

p/s: Darwin also said not nice... =(

Thanks to Taryn =)

Finally I have some free times for myself =)

The first post after the thesis submission is for my college friend Taryn!!!

I wanna thanks her for the lovely present!!!

I love BOTH of them =)))

Thank you!!!

I was a bit surprised

Hmm...

Although we are not "very very very close" as what you mentioned in the card

But I think we are "close" friends =P

You are always welcome to call me

=)

We should hang out together more frequent when both of us have time

Lastly, as usual...

Wish you do well in your study!!

Everything will be better than yesterday...

=D

by

Zixian

p/s: the thank you post is delayed for many many many days due to the stupid thesis... 

paiseh =P

Remember to SMILE

Never Frown, even you are sad, because you never know 
who is falling in love with your smile

=)

So

Everyone

Please remember to SMILE

I know who is going to fall in love with my SMILE... =P

Should be grateful when there is someone just wants to make you

a happy little girl

=)

zixian baobeiiii

=(

Impossible Mission

Hand in thesis on time...

=(((

I am exhausted!!! 

Edwin.......

Where are you???

=(((

Thank you...!!!

Received Support from My DarWin

Cheer up from Miao

Work hard together from FL

Jiayou from Vivian

and many other people...

by

Zixian

...

I am not tired

I am ok

I can do it

Go Go Go

Finish 10000 words for thesis

Finish 2000 words for eating assignment

in 4 days

I am trying to be optimistic...

Baby, don't cry...

Our Conversation ♥

"I love you ♥" He typed

"Thank you

I accept your love

I accept your admire

I know I worth it" I replied

"..." He replied

My face is super thick!!!

"I am smarter than you, no doubt..." I said

"I pretend to be stupid only" He said

"Ok lar, I understand you

dun need to protect yourself in front of me

being stupid is not a bad thing at all

傻人有傻福 没听说过吗?" I tried to make fun of this...

"hokkien call this as 天公疼傻子" he said

"Ya, they are the same thing lar...

that is why you meet me

because 天公疼你" I said =P

"Thank Tian Gong

...

I almost forget your face is as thick as mine..." He replied

LOL...

Talking with you, I feel relieve

Thanks for make me laugh everyday =)

"I love you too ♥" 

Actually this was my initial message I planned to replied

Haha...

Come, I give u a kiss =P

Love,

Zixian

Thesis Effect???

After few days having 3 meals outside...

+

I was too lazy to drive

So I cook

Campur all things from the fridge (1 tomato, 1 Potato, 2 Carrots)

and came out with this

Looks very unattractive...

LOL

But no choice...

Thesis period, as expected...

Messy table and bed...

with lots of papersssss...

and of course... Instant food !!! 

=P

Could get it without leaving my seat

zixian is pig...

haha...

and 1 more last thing...

I really wanna scold those who participated in my study, but simply finish it de people...

SCOLD LOUDLY

Super random post...

I received the call from mummy just now

Haha... the only 15 minutes conversation is kinda funny

Okay, first she asked "Will you go to Pavillion or The Garden these few weeks?"

Hmmm... I know she wants bag...

"If you go, help me to look at the price of LV Mxxxxx"

Hmmm... Improved, she set a higher target, not COACH anymore...

LV now...

Then we talk about "gal" stuff... (She will be happy if she is still categorized as gal =P)

Like...

the shape of the bag

the color she wants

her friend just bought it from US

it costs US Dollars 1500 

bla bla bla... so on and so forth...

Of course, we talk about Facebook

"Hey, your dad asked why the profile picture you posted up recently, you look so close to your bf de?"

Okay... He is my bf...

Actually I was a bit surprise when he stand so close to me when we were taking the photo

but I keep my answer in my mind...

and said "Haiyo, please lar, there is 100cm in between us when we take the photo ler.. you cant see meh?"

Of course, no one will believe.. LOL

and we talk about a lot a lot of stuff regarding "flower heart" issue

and I explained

"Please lar, I don't have 2 BFs one shot hor.. Never...!!!"

...

...

...

"Hey, he just buy car ar?"

Hmmm... My mum very geng wor... I din tell she also knows

then I ask "Har, you curi curi go to ask ah ying's mummy har..."

Then she keep laughing there and said she asked a lil bit only...

I wonder the reliability of her answer... =P

After that, we talk about the my schedule and she asked me to go back earlier...

then I asked "You want to meet him or me?"

*devil laughing* over there

and she said "he dare to come to our house meh???"

I said loudly "YA, he said will go..."

*Edwin, you must go d this time*

Then we talk about the demography information of him

just like the typical questions all mother will ask...

But I think, she knew everything d...

just maybe some part, ah ying's mum doesn't know...

and...

Edwin, my mum asked you to add her lar..

Then you have one new mother... (that is what she told me de)

LOL

My mum very sampat...

That's why, I am so sampat.. heredity...

and we keep talking nonsense..

till her second handphone rang...

THE END

LOL...

Ya, I am bored by the work now...

Just feel like posting something...

=P

KFC Again...

After the Film class

Me and Vivian went to

KFC

ya, KFC again!!!

After I gain few kgs in one month...

I went to KFC again...

OMG

I should restrict myself for having fastfood already!!!

But But But, I really like Whipped Potato!!!

My Favorite 

And HOT Milo... <3

Okok... It's time to continue the write-up for the evil thesis already!!!

Aza Aza Fighting =)

Zixian Baobei

Stress

Seriously,

I am almost almost almost can be diagnosed as insane d...

Getting crazy soon

very soon

I feel like crying

Damn...

This is what appears in my brain for every second...

What if I fail for thesis 2?

Zixian 

Devil Michelle

Today after taking the bath,

I called Devil Michelle Hong for dinner,

then she invited me to jog first,

after jogging she said she would like to have snowflake later,

after that, she said she wants chili panmee

So we went to Kota Damansara,

first go for panmee... *nice*

After that she said there is a shop, cheap clothes ler!!!

@.@

Then at the end...

I tried some clothes and buy it @.@

(Brian, This is me hor!!!)

Seriously, I think there are not expensive lar... =P

Of course, the end we went for Snow Flake =)))

Oh Devil Day...!!!

Zixian Xiao Baobei

Today someone promised to become my driver de hor...

Dun forget hor...

and ya, I will keep the receipt and claim from someone de... =P

Blessings

People are surprise

I know...

But I really hope I can have your blessings...

Especially you...

Zixian

L.O.V.E

Don't say I don't post anything ya... =P

Happy outing with someone special during my big day!!!

and Thanks for everything!!!

Of course including the *toothpaste* =)))


Hmmm... Q&A session....


You might have question regarding the speedy changes happened in my life
How to say???
Hmm...
Actually the last one, dependency took a big place in the relationship
That's why I can't leave him because
 I am so dependent on what he could give me no matter his heart is with me or not
Thought of escape from the problematic relationship had been in my mind for more than 1 year
And finally friends' advise and my determination made it happen
How I felt after the break up??
I felt relieve... I think this is a good idea for both of us...

Then why Zixian engage in a new romantic relationship in such a fast speed...?
My parents said "flower heart"
and I know they are not happy with what is happening...
But I believe time will prove how good this man is (at least at this moment) =)

Why I can date with a new guy 2 months after I ended a 2 years relationship with another guy?
Hmmm... a typical answer: I feel it!!!
It comes and I don't want to let it go...
Not rational??? Maybe...
But this is me...


Edwin, Thanks for the effort...
I know the wall is kinda thick...
and you might get hurt in the process of breaking through it...
and thanks for comforting me all the time while you are bleeding =P
Now, you deserve what is hide from the wall you that want to break through...
and you know... It is wonderful...
specifically, She is wonderful...!!! LOL...
=)))


No words can describe my feeling now...
*complicated*


Zixian Baobei <3

Long Distance Relationship

If you really know me, you will find out an interesting fact that

I wish I won't get involve in long distance relationship because it is tough

BUT since 16 y/o till now, the guys I dated all stay far far away from my place...

kinda ironic!!! LOL

That day, there was one guy called and asked me this question

"How do you maintain long distance romantic relationship?"

I said "I don't know, you have to figure it out yourself."

I said I don't know is because

Everyone is special

there is no exact formula to help you deal with this kind of problems

But I believe there is a theory for it...

Communication, Trust and Consideration 

are the important elements for enhance and maintain romantic relationship's satisfaction

Got it?? I got it...

=)

zixian baobei

Rainy Morning

Love you too, no matter what you are...

LOL

What if I am a silly bitch who hates dog and with many bad habits???

But of course, I am not...

I am cute, pretty and charming girl instead... =P

so you are LUCKY

Wahaha

Feel great when I wake up in this morning and be able to talk with you

and also post the article like this which can definitely help me with enhancing my self-esteem...

LOL

It's raining outside

I wish I am having a McD Big Breakfast with three of you at BP

=(

zixian

318

A special day for me...

@>--

A special day for you too...

<3

zixian baobei

♥

踏出一步

原来这个世界可以这么的的海阔天空

♥♥♥

紫贤宝贝

=)

Repairing is progressed

Please be patient

LOL

...

当爱情靠近的时候

我胆怯了

人啊

总是特别记得那个脆弱的时刻

因为我们都怕痛

无数个夜晚

我流着眼泪  他不知道

这样让我觉得特别孤单

所以我告别了这个让我深深陷入寂寞的男人

恢复单身

我留着眼泪  他或许知道

这样的我  在那一刻 心空了

有些东西消失了  然后我控制不到

所以更害怕爱情

可是爱情啊

它有魔力

就算知道靠近可能会受伤

但还是会想靠近它的魔力

真可怕

想碰但怕痛

这样的心情

真累

紫贤宝贝

...

Attend my cousin's wedding lunch

and I am "JiMui"

Interesting but tiring process

the games are... pretty easy...

and I get some angpow also =)

spent the whole 2 days

for preparation & dating...

wow

I really need more sleep time now...

only sleep for less than 2 hours today...

this is so not "zixian"

LOL

ok lar, have to do my assignment now... jiayou... =)

zixian

Smile =)

发自内心的笑  真美

我们 要幸福呀 

我该不该剪刘海啊???

紫贤

...

昨天在starbucks开会

真的是晕死我了

哈

真是羡慕可以喝咖啡的人呀

by

zixian

Next

带着内疚的心情

我在想着你

为什么会内疚

因为那么快地把心清空了?

或许吧

下一次  一定要学会诚实与信任

没了任何一样  就什么都没有了

等我准备好呀

下一次  我来啦 =)

by

zixian

...

工作不忘娱乐自己一番

最近真的很忙呀

快累死了

昨天2点才回到家

累到连凉都不冲

只是简单的刷个牙

然后就马上让我的宝贝床拥抱着我

结果竟然失眠

真的是xxx

然后隔一天7点又给我爬起来

真的是xxx

Zixian,

Don't be too strict to yourself as you know you are not very good at handling stress

Don't push yourself too harsh.. But of course still need to push a bit lar..

But at least try don't keep reminding yourself about the unfinished assignmentss when you are in the bed...

haha...

Gal, everything will be just fine...

Zixian

...

Not Now

Not Now 

&

Not Now

At least 1 or 2 months later...

But thanks =)

Super hungry now...!!!

zixian

...

候佩岑说

“人活着嘛  痛一下也没关系”

“好的 不好的  都要接受  因为生命是一个过程”

那天我才说

心痛真的很痛

我不想再心痛了

不过现在想想

至少我认真活过

然后也清楚地感受到心痛是怎么样的

生命不就是一个过程又一个过程连接起来的东西

所以要懂得去享受

从今以后

不要再放大悲伤  缩小了我的快乐

zixian

最熟悉的陌生人

正在听着

最熟悉的陌生人

by萧亚轩

那位最熟悉的陌生人

不晓得过得好不好

不晓得工作顺不顺利

不晓得有没有过得比从前快乐

zixian

LOL

原来这个世界有一种病是不聊天就会死的病

原来这个世界上左手是右手的第三者

LOL

I can't stop laughing when my friend told me these information

And, there was a proposal happened in my house yesterday...

It was sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!!

Details would be posted when I am free...

You all, brighten my weekends =)

Zixian

季节

最近 好像是分手的季节阿

大家 加油啦 =)

zixian

想要

想去海边看风景

想去爬山拍照

想把功课都在下一秒做完

想要回家等妈妈煮给我吃

想要每天都有人载我去上课

(F*** Stupid Car Park)

想要有很多participants

想要看电影有人陪

想要家里不吃晚餐的那两个女人都吃晚餐

想去clubbing

想要抱着Anny, Miao & Cheun

人的欲望真的是无止境阿

不过

当务之急

我想要回马六甲买药

=(

zixian

...

昨晚

躺下之后

我在想

如果有机会 我会回到你的身边吗     不会

就像我跟某个人说过的一样   错过了就是错过了  不管之前是多么爱

不过你还真的是无处不在啊

洗衣服的时候  你在

晒衣服的时候  你在

煮午餐的时候  你在

现在下雨了  你还是在

在我的记忆里   你真是无处不在呀

旧的记忆抹不掉   那就要创造新的记忆啦

cheer...

zixian

左边心房的故事

我说“我左边心房很空，可以帮我填满吗？”

Nic说“你要我怎样填满？”

我说“吹气啊”

然后她狠狠的吸了一口气对准我左边心房的吹进去

当下左边心房就满了

不是因为她吹的那口气

而是那份心意

=)

zixian

一步一脚印

你离我越来越远

虽然心里还是觉得遗憾夹杂淡淡的心疼

但是我并没有越来越想念你

这是痊愈的征兆吗？

我身边有好多宝贝朋友们

真的是太感激了

有雅雅，妙，璇，美恬，权，大奶... 很多中学同学

有Vivian, JunMin, Chiawei, Cuici, Vin, Nyx, Charlotte, Jasmin, JingGuo... 很多大学同学

有柔，凯旋，良彬，维文... 很多家乡朋友

还有最劳苦功高的宝贝室友，Michelle, Nicole 和 阿滢表姐&HB表姐夫

加上最后一个最近才刚认识的很可爱的朋友 (名字省略 haha)

你们的出现  真棒！！！有你们，我不孤单呀！

zixian

Valentine's day

最近才发现

怎么一年里会有那么多次情人节

=.=

这世界怎么就那么商业化

今天朋友问要不要去抛柑

我就说那我跟你一起去吧

他竟然说 “我不想捡到你的柑”

闷

祝所有人幸福啦

zixian

Review =)

This post entitled "Review"

Because this is a review of my 2010

=)

Last year, I was good!

Friends stay around me, can eat can live without worries

But this year, I will be better!!!

I am going to graduate july of 2011.

OMG... I am big girl already!!!

I should go for interview and work...

I have to become more independent...

kinda scary...

Haha... But I will figure it out and find the best way for living =)